rewind |
the suspicion |
forward
Although it's not yet medically confirmed, I'm 99.9% sure that I am
pregnant again. I'm three weeks late for my period. I should have had it on
April 3, 2000. If only I weren't so broke right now that I can't afford an
EPT! But, I
am pregnant-
I just know it.
My husband and I are happy about the prospect of having another child. However, I also feel twinges of
sadness and fear. I just had a
miscarriage this past July. Words alone fail to fully express the depths of
anguish and confusion.
Why did that baby die?
Given that my husband is a second generation survivor of
Agent Orange Sickness, it is quite likely that the fetus had some serious health problems. Regardless, I can only accept that for whatever reasons, that child was not meant to be.
This time, though... /me
smiles.